cassildra: A silver pegasus on a purple shield. (Default)
I am no longer employed at Target.

It's kind of a shock, but eh, it's probably for the best anyway. I didn't really like the job anyway. I still have AFMBE, so I can terrorize my players with zombies.
cassildra: A silver pegasus on a purple shield. (futurama: awful dream)
I came to a conclusion last week that troubles me. I hate my job. I've never hated a job this much, this quickly. Even at the end, when I was fighting with whats-her-name at the library, I wouldn't actively dread going into work this much. I was calling off a lot, sure, but I was also sick as hell with a migraine resurgence. (I actually kind of wonder if those were more tension headaches than migraines, but I can't think back to the exact symptoms I was having.)

I bring this up because I find myself bitching about work to my friends a lot. I actively dread going in. I won't call off unless I have to--last Friday being proof of that, with me going in and then going home due to migraine, but with staying at work Saturday despite becoming massively dehydrated since I could still perform my duties--but when I have to work, I am awfully cranky about it.

I don't like that I don't like my job. I've never hated a job this much before. I feel like I've failed someone, somehow, because I don't give a crap about how the store looks. Most of my coworkers are nice enough, and I've made some friends. I just cannot stand that store.

I am sure that talking about this with my therapist will help. I just don't know why I feel like this. I don't normally hate jobs. I don't understand why I hold myself up to such a high standard when I know I cannot reach those goals. It just sets me up for disappointment. (For the record, my college dreams and my desire to be a librarian aren't what I'm talking about. I mean the stuff like never hating jobs. That's unrealistic, and yet I am angry at myself because I don't omg love my job.)

At least with switching my shifts around this week, I work tonight and then I'm off until Friday and Saturday. Next week I work four days in a row (at least!), which will suck so hard, but... *shrug* if I can keep securing these Sunday-Monday free weeks, I really shouldn't complain. :/ In this economy, it's a job, you know? I can't just live off my disability. I've tried.

I'm gonna go kill some pixels, or work on some origami, or something. I've got a few minutes before work, and stress relief is a good idea.

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cassildra: A silver pegasus on a purple shield. (Default)
Target schedule until 4/4/2009--

Wednesday, 25 March--4:15pm to close
Thursday, 26 March--11:45am to 4:15pm
Friday, 27 March--6pm to close
Saturday, 28 March--5:30 to close
Sunday, 29 March--3:15 to close
Wednesday, 1 April--5pm to close
Friday, 3 April--4:15 to close

Be still, my beating heart--I have a Saturday off! There's this cute guy on OKCupid who asked me out, and I'm going to see if he wants to hang out then. There's also another sweet dude who's been very patient with me, so we're going to Dave and Buster's on Thursday.
cassildra: A silver pegasus on a purple shield. (Default)
I saw Watchmen yesterday. Everything I'd say about it has been said before, honestly, so let's just leave it as "omg WIN". It was pretty in IMAX, although the magnificent cerulean wang was kind of excessively large. I thought the gore and nudity was a bit gratuitous, and spoiler for those who never read the comic ). Overall, though, despite it not being a Happy Funtime Movie, I greatly enjoyed it--but we all know I have a Thing for shades of grey in fiction.

I have work this evening, which will be kind of ten times better 'cause I actually have shoes that will support my feet! I'm strangely sore all over, though--when I take my Imitrex, I also take three Aleve with it, to simulate the... uh, I forget the name of the New Migraine Uber-Drug, but it's naproxin and Imitrex, so it's the same thing for cheaper.

Anyway. After three Aleve, the knot at the base of my skull shouldn't hurt anymore. It's been bothering me for a while now, but I thought the Aleve would make it less cranky. Really, all I want now is a muscle relaxant and a professional massage. [livejournal.com profile] blackpaladin gives great massages and knows how to work knots out of my muscles, but it's gotten to the point where I can't, in good conscience, ask him to keep doing that kind of thing--it involves a lot of work and by the time we head to bed, he's too tired to work on that knot the way I seem to need.

....lol, magnificent cerulean wang
cassildra: A silver pegasus on a purple shield. (Default)
Last night was pretty good. It was your typical "first night working retail", so I came home and was pretty miserable from sore and stress, but the environment's kind of fun and my coworkers are nice. One's a bit... you know, chatty, and likes to complain, but she's still competent and very nice.

I certainly don't want to end up working there as a career move, but (at least once I get used to being on my feet like that again!) I think I can handle staying here for a while. All of the crappy things about dealing with people are coming back, of course, but having people to snark with is exceedingly helpful. The woman training me is fun and has a great sense of humor.

I'm still debating on whether or not I want to get one of the Target check cards or a REDcard. I'll likely try to get one or the other, because I really do hate carrying cash. Any suggestions, current or former Target employees? I think I'm more eligible for the check card, 'cause I have NO credit at all. I'd rather not get a crappy high-interest-high-annual-rate card if I can help it.

I am going to find a book to read. I'm almost done with that meditation book, and it's pretty interesting. I really recommend anyone who's interested in that kind of thing to look up "The Complete Idiot's Guide To Meditation".

Adopt one today! Adopt one today! Adopt one today!
cassildra: A silver pegasus on a purple shield. (sailor moon: usagi sleeping)
So tired. Last night was a lot of fun, but I didn't get to bed until almost one. We had an [livejournal.com profile] oceanicwish come with us to the pagan meeting and TGI Friday's afterward. She picked up a book on tarot, and then came back home to explore [livejournal.com profile] blackpaladin's decks. I'd have offered her mine, but the Necronomicon tarot is NOT a good starter deck... >_>

I have to go for a drug test today; [livejournal.com profile] gypsymila is going to be kind enough to drive me, and then we're going to hang out a bit. This evening is a birthday party for one of [livejournal.com profile] blackpaladin's friends--I'm not sure if she has LJ, but I hear she's a neat person, so I'm looking forward to it. :D

[livejournal.com profile] valancy17 is going to treat me to a movie tomorrow afternoon--we're going to see He's Just Not That Into You. lol valentine's day whut. After that, I'm not sure what [livejournal.com profile] blackpaladin and I will do for Valentine's Day except that I will demand at least one episode of Samurai Jack. I celebrate February 14th in style, what can I say.

Wow, things are shaping up to be busy. And now I've got to go scour the news about what exactly happened with that plane crash outside of Buffalo...
cassildra: A silver pegasus on a purple shield. (Default)
I got hired by Target today. Well, barring my drug test coming back positive (which I highly doubt).

God, today rocks.

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